So I lost power sometime early Wednesday morning due to the ice storm that we’ve had over here on the East Coast. I froze my butt off all Wednesday, barely got any sleep Wednesday night, and I didn’t get power back until late Thursday. Not what I would call a great mid-week. Not to mention Valentine’s Day didn’t turn out quite as I hoped (partly due to the whole power thing). Good news is... I’m celebrating Valentine’s Day tonight instead. Hopefully the weekend will turn out better.

So to all those who are freezing... I empathize.



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You know the saying “when it rains, it pours”? I don’t think that there is a better way to describe my life. I’ve never had just one thing go wrong. Let’s take my recent predicaments as an example.

It wasn’t bad enough that I found out how serious my own problems really are...

I had to add on the doubt of the one person I really need...

And now, my horse just wants to make my stress levels complete by throwing her own little temper tantrum, seriously hurting herself in the process.

I only wonder what else is going to be put on my plate. All of my current issues are unresolved, so they are constantly on my mind. Sleep is a precious gift that I do not seem to be receiving.

My only thought now is what next?





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I couldn't stand it any longer... I had to see you. To talk to you. To convince you.
You actually looked at me today. You held me. You kissed me.
We talked. I listened.
Thank you for seeing me. For caring. For believing.




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I don't think that things could have gone more wrong.

What I hoped was going to be ok is not. And what you once felt was going to be ok, you don't anymore. Your confused, I get that. I would be too if I was in your position. But I'm scared. I'm scared because I don't want to loose you. I'm scared that my life is falling apart around me, and it's nothing I can control.

It snowed outside yesterday. You were right.

I cried. I've cried. I can't sleep, can't eat. I want to talk to you... but I'm giving you time.

I don't know how much longer I can go without...




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“Love is like oxygen, love is a many splendored thing, love lifts us up where we belong, all you need is love!” Christian – Moulin Rouge

I don’t know what’s been wrong with me recently. Maybe I’ve been swept up in love…. I see my best friend – the happiest she’s ever been. I see my other friend in a mood that I’ve never seen her in. And when I think about it all, I think I’m swept up in the love. The giddy, you can’t stop smiling, can’t sit still, can’t think straight, can’t function without this person. Love seems to be my muse at the moment. I can’t say that I mind. Have I been bitten by the love bug? Possibly. To early to say in my case. As for those around me… the love is all around. Maybe its just the oncoming of Valentines day and the passing of the holidays that brings this out. Maybe it’s just my silly romantic notions, and the romantic novels I’ve been reading. But I’d like to think that there is more behind it. Everyone deserves to be happy, ecstatically so if possible. Even if I’m not there yet, just seeing those around me at that point is exhilarating. I think that I’ve slowed down… even if it’s just a little bit. I realize the world around me more. And I like that. Will this be permanent? Will I be able to overcome my inhibitions? Could this be love, or turn into love?



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